Monday, April 30, 2007

pain never be cure...

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Yea.. yea, its monday again, maybe today i can announce the bad day for me, with my mind messed up, i cannot do anything, melayang ntah kemane, but today i managed to find sumting, sumting that can release or my burden, all my promises, ape yang aku pegang selame nie mungkin tak akan kesampaian, tp i tried my hard until today...and suddenly....all boomm, terlerai...little bit aku rase lega, at least sampai hujung i tried to saved and kept to the promises..i shud proud to my self, hey...!!im be sumbody who can kept prmises..hehe..tp sume tue mungkin tak dpt ubati ape yang aku rase skrg...i felt so sad like nothinig in this world can make me smile again...phewww...hope aku bole bangkit dari jatuh aku...thanks to my office mate tini, jatuh sekali tak bermakna takkan bangun..one word for you tini, sorry!, if my ignorance cant accepting you now, btw i've tried to be the best for you mate...hope it be real someday k....kaylah, its already late, and im working on labour day, wut can i say, its triple pay...heheh...kumpul duit beli rumah..that d real plan on me now....
Muacha gracias...

Friday, April 27, 2007

life is mono...

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Thursday

Its been awhile im not updating my blog, since started committed with works, 2407 @ office, so during free time oni can update my daily blog...malam2 minggu macam nie still @ d office, this wut i had only, office dah jadi mcm 2nd house..cleaner2 dah jadi mcm budah rumah...heh, well this wut i choosed after all the thing impact me...disaat ini..orang2 lain, hanging out wif friends, watching movie, lepaking, clubbing, keluar dgn orang tersayang...heh..me..??still @ d' office...siapkan keje yang tak akan siap2 sampai bila2 untilkompeni nie bankrupt kot baru siap sume keje...heh...life is mono..tapi aku bersyukur...at least i'd have try to improve the life, try to change d life...cari duit..kebebasan??..nie kut kebebasan aku..im 24, ape lagi nk cari kalau bukan duit untuk hidup senang kemudian...gf? yea..i do have..once...heh, but not rite now, i learned from the past..its better for me...get all the thing rite ..stable..so later..bile nk kawen takdelah aku heret die skali susah..at least..die, family, famiy aku..leh tumpang senang..yeah...single?sumting okay..tak payah nk pikir untuk orang lain, susah senang orang lain...tp kadangkala akan rase kesunyian..yeah..bile tgk sakit demam, susah senang share same2...aku pernah ade tue sume..tp aku tak hargai sume tue...and this wut i have had now...i make the biggest decision in my life...lepaskan sume...selame nie orang ckp aku tak pernah stick to one decision...and now...this my decision is..my life...so folks..its depend to you how to pattern ur life..hidup hanye skali..choose it the right way...me?let me be the way i am..as long aku tahu dekat mane tempat aku..dekat mane asal usul aku..dekat siapa aku sujud..siapa aku syg...cukup if im d only know...
Muacha Gracias...


Dido-Life for Rent
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive If my life is for rent...

Saturday, April 14, 2007

its looolapalooza emoticon day

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As usual, im working on satuday!!, hehe, just went back having lunchie at pelita with my colleagues, dah lame tak mengapdate blog ini, bizi memanjang memaksa hamba melupakan hasrat utk mengapdate blog, oleh kerana hari ini sayup2, hamba nk berckp psal "CINTA", words yang teramat general, everybody has it's own story bout this, "happy, sad, teruja, kechiwa" all inside it, ada yang rase dengan dpt sum 1, itulah cinta, ade setengah orang yang cintanya amat komplikated, ade stengah orang yang pilih cinta berdasarkan harta benda, rupa paras, nafsu, ikhlas hati dan ikut perasaan, ade stengah orang yang boleh kekalkan cintanya itu buat selamanya, ade jugak yang cintanya hanya bertahan seminggu, 5 hari atau 5 minit, ade stengah orang yang sanggup bermusuh/ berbunuh/ semata2 kerana cinta, namun terpulang kepada individu itu bagaimana untuk mentafsirkan cinta, setiap orang berhak dan tiada sikit pun batasan untuk mencintai atau dicintai walaupun die ; menteri, banduan, serial killer, peminta sedekah, perkerja buruh, budak sekolah, mat rempit, minah rempit atau white collar officer, and as for me, love is general, its not jusk kinda of feeling, but more than that, this feeling teach me how love, how to be loved, how to struggle, ive been in all this for years, recently..after wut have happened, ill change a lot, not only physical..but mental (bukan gila neyh)..make me more matured in considering thing, teach me how to respect others feeling (mostly women), wut i have done, cannot be forgived..im learned from that...once we done, selamanya2 akan terpahat di hati, to someone which i really love, from the mistake ive done, please forgive all my mistakes, i shud know, its take forever to forget wut i've done, n skrg pun im alreadi jalani hukuman atas kesalahan sendiri, wut i've got now..sy terima and redha..but deep down inside, u're the one,

"its take a minutes to know someone....
but to forget it.....it takes forever"



"love need two to complete....."

Friday, April 6, 2007

i wont worry *remedy

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thursday

Just went back from penang, some kine of training, recently got a gud news, there a som position in penang and jaybee, open but will be filters first, so im deciding to take part of it, trying my lucks...so last 2 days im not working, lot of activities, cari phone dengan tini(officemate)..baru dpt kad kredit..terus lanyak kad kredit tue..baru 2 hari bertahan dah rabak..so she bought n73 music edition..nice phone, we doing video call a lots..hehhhe...and last 2 days my ex-colleagues( sophia, intan, nurul, and sue) ajak makan dekat tgi 1-utama dengan my ex-lecturer, Cik Aso...so cuti nie diguna dengan sebaiknye...just tak sempat nk pegi gim, but nevermindlah..bayar pun tak lagi, dah tertunggak almost 2 months..hhehe...so folks, thats all for today, tommorow im working again * sigh...GRACIAS!!

Monday, April 2, 2007

its monday again.....*sigh

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absolutely its monday....

wake up early in the morning...(luckily manage to wake up pg2), so masak2 breafast dulu..scramble egg, with cofee...umphh....sesuai ntuk pagi2 yang mals nk pegi keje nie, so sume dha siap, baju sluar dh siap bersterika,....keje masuk kul 9 arini nie..so kene pegi awal2, sebab byk makhluk dekat masjid jamek tue, sampai je sane, jumpe dengan ex-officemate, ghupenye die pun dh tukar keje, dulu skali kat CCM, skrg dah dekat megan avenue, bahagian audit mengaudit,so borak2 kejap, so haluan byk bende yang dborakkan, guphenye die ckp akt kompeni lame gaji ciput, aku rase teruja je nk keje sane, terus batalkan hasrat...hehheh..so sampai dkt office ngam2 kul 0845am, boleh dikatakan awal, bukak sume yang patut, first thing skali aku masuk office, aku nk tgk tini(officemate), die ckp nak pakai dress hari nie...waweeeeeee....cun..hehhehe...nasbi baik gue ini masih lagi terluke seyh..batalkan hasrat cintan cintun sume nie...so hari nie abis keje kul 0600pm, first thing aku pegi i-centre jumpe haryati dah date dgn die nk ambik blackbery..hell yeah...at last i manage to get one blackbeery...heppi2nyeh....hehehhe...tp still tak leh pakai lagi...nvm, tommorow pagi2 lagi esok aku cari budak helpdesk, suruh diorang aktifkan ntuk aku...owhh ya..yesterday i went to the curve with my buddies, didi n mia, naib 'porshe' didie...pegi pickup mia dkt rumah baru.."sorry mia tak tolong ngko pindah rumah"...so pegi2 je the curve terus amik tiket movie "perfume" angkara didi kemetot nk tgk citer nie..aku bajet tak best..tp...one thumb!, okayla...jalan cerite die fine, kisah seorang pembuat perfume yang praktikal menjadi seorang pembunuh bersiri,angkara hidungnya yang mempunyai tahap menghidu 800km jarak die..tak pcaye??go n see....so before movie stat, we played bowling and for the record..mestilah hero menang..walaupun baliing bola sume2 bengkang...hahahah, n then didi blanje makan dkt pinang little cafe, waweeee...abc cendol and air soya is soooooo tempted, nanti nk pegi lagi yeh mia, blanje lagi ehh mia...hahhah..kaylah, thats all for today, rase nk balik.....tp syg nk tinggal tini here..tini.....abang balik dulu...GRACIAS!!